Seems like there are more similarities between me and my brother than I ever knew...
His recent blog entry reflects his loneliness and detachment from people around him, and at this stage, that's exactly how it feels...
Met up with Mei Hui today, and was also talking about the same stuff, about not meeting up with friends, or supposed friends, and sometimes not wanting to meet up with them...
I'm not too sure why too... But like quite lazy just to go out and meet up with people... So I'm kind of losing touch with a lot of people... At the same time, it also costs money to do that, which I'm kind of lacking as well... Hahaha...
And there are simply times when I don't wish to meet with anyone, yet I feel lonely... So it's really quite complicated...
Have thought through some stuff about where I'm heading to and what I'm doing... But it's still a bit hazy... But I have set goals for myself, so I'll have to try to work towards it... Hopefully all goes well...
Supposed to go meet Junbin, but a bit lazy to step out of the house liao... Prob will lah... Stay a home also stare at the computer only...
Till later...
Thursday, August 25, 2005
Friday, August 19, 2005
Bad Day - Daniel Powter
Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
(Oh.. Holiday..)
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
My brother just reminded me of this song, so thought I'd just blog it to share it... Think it's a nice song to descirbe the sense of lost I felt yesterday... Oh well...
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
(Oh.. Holiday..)
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
My brother just reminded me of this song, so thought I'd just blog it to share it... Think it's a nice song to descirbe the sense of lost I felt yesterday... Oh well...
Friday, August 05, 2005
Calm has returned...
Finally managed to clear up my tornado-damaged room... It looks so tidy and clean now! YEAH! Took me close to 22 days to go through all the rubbish that has accumulated over the breathless weeks of turmoil and busy-ness... Everything that comes along my way is chucked in piles near my thermarest, making it a tumultous feat just to vacuum or mop the floor...
But now, it's all gone, with only a small stack of stuff on a wheeled chair under my tiny desk... My desk seems to be getting smaller and smaller.. After my notebook sits on it, there's hardly anymore space for me to write and read on.. But it's a comfortable clutter so far... Can still find what I need... =) So it ain't that bad after all...
Well, my room's not large in the first place... If I were to throw in a bean bag and a small television, it would a nice little one room flat... Cosy and self-equipped... Have my stoves and handphone... So I'm still pretty well-fed and self-sufficient... Hahaha... What am I thinking about?!
Anyway, the sense of accomplishment of having a neater environment to work and sleep in, is just great... And I'm rearing to move on from where I left off... Need to start doing marketing! No, no... Not going to the market to get groceries, but start officially with the publicity of my organisation's programmes, particularly the youth market, mainly the schools...
I'll be going off for a dive trip this evening... A long-awaited break from all the hustle and bustle over the past few weeks... Hopefully I do not come forth as the Singapore symbol again... A Merlion! Heh heh... It was only recently that I found out that the Merlion is the figment of STB's (Singapore Tourism Board) imagination! Feel so cheated! I have all the while thought that it was a folklore that was passed down from generation to generation, from our forefathers, who have witnessed something when Sang Nila Utama came to Singapore, or then known as Temasek. But, alas, to my great disappointment *drama mama*, it was just STB's noble attempt to make Singapore more interesting to the tourists and even to our fellow people. Hai... And I actually was so proud of it... Now it's just like the Tooth Fairy and Santa Claus... But come to think of it, it's quite a nice thought Singapore has its own stories and well, beliefs? Just like our counterparts, US, China...
Well, time to get back to work... And get ready for diving! YEAH!
Pics of my last dive trip:
But now, it's all gone, with only a small stack of stuff on a wheeled chair under my tiny desk... My desk seems to be getting smaller and smaller.. After my notebook sits on it, there's hardly anymore space for me to write and read on.. But it's a comfortable clutter so far... Can still find what I need... =) So it ain't that bad after all...
Well, my room's not large in the first place... If I were to throw in a bean bag and a small television, it would a nice little one room flat... Cosy and self-equipped... Have my stoves and handphone... So I'm still pretty well-fed and self-sufficient... Hahaha... What am I thinking about?!
Anyway, the sense of accomplishment of having a neater environment to work and sleep in, is just great... And I'm rearing to move on from where I left off... Need to start doing marketing! No, no... Not going to the market to get groceries, but start officially with the publicity of my organisation's programmes, particularly the youth market, mainly the schools...
I'll be going off for a dive trip this evening... A long-awaited break from all the hustle and bustle over the past few weeks... Hopefully I do not come forth as the Singapore symbol again... A Merlion! Heh heh... It was only recently that I found out that the Merlion is the figment of STB's (Singapore Tourism Board) imagination! Feel so cheated! I have all the while thought that it was a folklore that was passed down from generation to generation, from our forefathers, who have witnessed something when Sang Nila Utama came to Singapore, or then known as Temasek. But, alas, to my great disappointment *drama mama*, it was just STB's noble attempt to make Singapore more interesting to the tourists and even to our fellow people. Hai... And I actually was so proud of it... Now it's just like the Tooth Fairy and Santa Claus... But come to think of it, it's quite a nice thought Singapore has its own stories and well, beliefs? Just like our counterparts, US, China...
Well, time to get back to work... And get ready for diving! YEAH!
Pics of my last dive trip:
Saturday, July 09, 2005
Sudden thoughts
Was on my way to Toa Payoh this morning to meet up with a friend... Was reading a book called "The Invisible Touch". It's about marketing... And I was on this section, "Research and its limits - The Frame of Mind: Humble Openness". It has this question: "What is reality?" and says that Lily Tomlin answered it best in her solo stage show 'The Search for Signs of Intelligent Life in the Universe', written by Jane Wagner.
"After all," Tomlin's bag lady character muses, "what is reality anyway? Nothin' but a collective hunch.'
Tomlin may have exaggerated, but the successful marketer should question virtually everything - especially her own observations. The brilliant marketer acts with humble openness. She willingly believes she may be wrong, accepts other ways of thinking, and recognizes that prospects may think differently than she does.
And then in another part of the book, it says:
"'As you walk down the street, people in Goofy and Mickey Mouse costumes walk up to you and greet you happily. In various parts of the park, you find a ride through a jungle, a submarine trip, cars that race around a track, and other rides.'
'Would you be interested in such a park?'
'Would you fly two thousand miles to visit it?'
'Would you pay a hundred dollars a day for your family to visit it?'
Almost certainly, the answers to those three quesetions ould have been maybe, no, and absolutely not. And Disneyland and Disney World might never have been built...
The more innovative your idea, the smaller the number of people who will understand it - and people have great trouble imagining that they will buy something they cannot remember...
Even more important, the more innovative the idea, the more uncomfortable people feel about it. Truly new ideas make people uneasy. When Fred Smith trotted his idea for Federal Express by his experienced and intelligent business professors, they thought it would never fly; Federel Express was too different.
You can see the pattern: the more innovative the idea, the less likely it is to survive this kind of scrutiny. And yet, the more innovative the idea, the greater the potential success."
Even though the book is talking about how we can use marketing in our business and some basic understanding of it, I find this section seems so much to be talking about life... And how I would like my life to be... Unassuming, open-minded and hearted and accepting...
Seems like its quite easy to accomplish, but the world is so fixed in its ways, that really, it is quite difficult to change opinions. I'm quite an innovator myself, sometimes with wild and crazy dreams, to want to do this and that. I have always thought of setting up my own business and people used to say that it isn't that easy and that I should do something more stable. And now that I have my own business, I dream of growing it and earning my first million. And yet, people are still telling me, I should find a more stable job, as my finances are suffering now, and I don't have enough CPF for the future. No savings.
But somehow, I feel I have accomplished much in this short life of mine. At least I've done slightly more than most people my age. I may not be earning $3,000-$4,000 a month at the moment, but I believe I will... Just need time... With time and patience, I believe I can make it...
I have believed in dreaming ever since I started to see myself as someone better than who I am now... When I was first given a taste of self worth, when I was in the Students' Council in JJC. Not that I've been optimistic and so positive all my life... I've been through 2 years of depression. Thank God it wasn't serious, just a mild case, but it was enough to drive me crazy, to feel so unsure of myself, to have my mood swing to extrmes through the day.
It was a horrible feeling. It made me and the people around me hate me. And that made things even worse. But I guess with a totally new change of environment, new team of people to work with, new sense of belonging and worth, things took a good change. Off course the people around me played a part in bringing me through to where I am today.
Well, I'll be doing up my goal chart tomorrow, so that I have a benchmark of how much I have achieved and over how long a period of time, so I'll know if I have been successful, according to my dictioonary lah... Heh heh...
So all the best to me, and my dreams... The perception is to individual... May I fulfil my dreams and those around me! YEAH!! =)
"After all," Tomlin's bag lady character muses, "what is reality anyway? Nothin' but a collective hunch.'
Tomlin may have exaggerated, but the successful marketer should question virtually everything - especially her own observations. The brilliant marketer acts with humble openness. She willingly believes she may be wrong, accepts other ways of thinking, and recognizes that prospects may think differently than she does.
And then in another part of the book, it says:
"'As you walk down the street, people in Goofy and Mickey Mouse costumes walk up to you and greet you happily. In various parts of the park, you find a ride through a jungle, a submarine trip, cars that race around a track, and other rides.'
'Would you be interested in such a park?'
'Would you fly two thousand miles to visit it?'
'Would you pay a hundred dollars a day for your family to visit it?'
Almost certainly, the answers to those three quesetions ould have been maybe, no, and absolutely not. And Disneyland and Disney World might never have been built...
The more innovative your idea, the smaller the number of people who will understand it - and people have great trouble imagining that they will buy something they cannot remember...
Even more important, the more innovative the idea, the more uncomfortable people feel about it. Truly new ideas make people uneasy. When Fred Smith trotted his idea for Federal Express by his experienced and intelligent business professors, they thought it would never fly; Federel Express was too different.
You can see the pattern: the more innovative the idea, the less likely it is to survive this kind of scrutiny. And yet, the more innovative the idea, the greater the potential success."
Even though the book is talking about how we can use marketing in our business and some basic understanding of it, I find this section seems so much to be talking about life... And how I would like my life to be... Unassuming, open-minded and hearted and accepting...
Seems like its quite easy to accomplish, but the world is so fixed in its ways, that really, it is quite difficult to change opinions. I'm quite an innovator myself, sometimes with wild and crazy dreams, to want to do this and that. I have always thought of setting up my own business and people used to say that it isn't that easy and that I should do something more stable. And now that I have my own business, I dream of growing it and earning my first million. And yet, people are still telling me, I should find a more stable job, as my finances are suffering now, and I don't have enough CPF for the future. No savings.
But somehow, I feel I have accomplished much in this short life of mine. At least I've done slightly more than most people my age. I may not be earning $3,000-$4,000 a month at the moment, but I believe I will... Just need time... With time and patience, I believe I can make it...
I have believed in dreaming ever since I started to see myself as someone better than who I am now... When I was first given a taste of self worth, when I was in the Students' Council in JJC. Not that I've been optimistic and so positive all my life... I've been through 2 years of depression. Thank God it wasn't serious, just a mild case, but it was enough to drive me crazy, to feel so unsure of myself, to have my mood swing to extrmes through the day.
It was a horrible feeling. It made me and the people around me hate me. And that made things even worse. But I guess with a totally new change of environment, new team of people to work with, new sense of belonging and worth, things took a good change. Off course the people around me played a part in bringing me through to where I am today.
Well, I'll be doing up my goal chart tomorrow, so that I have a benchmark of how much I have achieved and over how long a period of time, so I'll know if I have been successful, according to my dictioonary lah... Heh heh...
So all the best to me, and my dreams... The perception is to individual... May I fulfil my dreams and those around me! YEAH!! =)
Thursday, June 30, 2005
Notes to Myself by Hugh Pather
I must do these things in order to communicate:Become aware of you (discover you).
Make you aware of me (uncover myself).
Be ready to change during our conversation,
and be willing to reveal my changes to you.
For communication to have meaning it must have a life.
It must transcend "you and me" and become "us".
If I truly communicate, I see in you a life that is not me and partake of it.
And you see and partake of me.
In a small way we then grow out of our old selves and become something new.
To have this kind of sharing I cannot enter a conversation clutching myself.
I must enter it with loose boundaries.
I must give myself to the relationship,and be willing to be what grows out of it.
-----------------
The last time I blogged, was in 2003. I never quite published those. Not that I'm ashamed of it, but more like, I'd like to put it behind me. Why start blogging again? No idea... Seeing lots of people blogging, my friends, cousins and sibling, so thought I'd just give it another shot. So here I am. I'm on the computer most of the time anyway, so might as well.
And so the story begins...