Demoralised...

Went for a meeting this morning with the Principal of Shuqun Secondary School... Next year she will be the Principal for Northlight School, a new school for the youth-at-risk... It was the fastest sit down meeting I had... Lasted about 10-15 mins only... So sad... Seems like I have nothing much to offer her... With the big boys like OBS and a non-profit organisation going in to provide so much to the school. So many more companies have also offered their services at cost price or even for free... But I can't afford to do that... Then my daily bread how?
Guess maybe at cost can lah... But can't be all the time... And what type of programmes can we offer? What type of niche can we provide for them? OBS has the facilities and the expertise, the non-profit organisation provides low cost and long term attachment to the students, cos they are moving into mentoring/befrienders style... Can I generate something in between?
Suddenly I lost the motivation to do what I hoped to do... Been meeting up with so many people in the past 3 weeks or so, hoping that some of the stuff will materialise to real projects, to start earning money... But no... Nothing is firmed yet... Nothing that I can work on full-time... And I need that... I really need it, to boost my own morale...
Llike some of my friends and contacts say, "You should be quite busy this June huh? Lots of camps and workshops happen during this period of time..." But no... I have don't have a single deal yet... Not sure how much longer I can sustain... But I will keep trying... Probably need another round of reflection... Was so looking forward to clinching quite a number of deals... But not yet, no positive responses yet...
Can someone please help me? I want to upgrade myself... But I don't have the means to... And if I don't upgrade myself, I don't have the paper qualifications to do what I hope to do... What the! Hai... Vicious cycle attacking me again...